Through the years I’ve been hurt
and kicked down in the dirt
my heart has been battered
My self esteem is shattered
I was cruisin in my ride
and contemplating suicide
When I heard your quiet voice
Pointing me toward another choice
I tried to run and hide
deny who I am inside
Gotta be true to what I feel
return to a place thats real
Now its time to embrace
Stop hiding my real face
Time to be true to the real me
get back to being truly free!
(It’s a work in progress. I’m still editing and trying to perfect it, so I am open to advice.)
I had plans of doing absolutely nothing today. Life doesn’t always work out that way though.
That is my 12 year old son. He and his sister were playing a little rough, and wrestling around (like I have said not to do about 3 billion times). Suddenly I hear a crash, and laughter which was quickly interrupted by a scream and lots of tears.
If you are a wrestling fan, you may be familiar with a belly to belly suplex. (If not, there are some great examples on Youtube.) My daughter is 16, but she is smaller than my 12 year old. She’s been training for cross country lately, and working out a lot. Apparently she didn’t realize her own strength. She suplexed her brother in the middle of the living room floor. You see some of the results in the picture.
One ambulance ride, a CT scan, and several x-rays later we find out that his neck and back are fine. (We really thought she may have broken his neck.) The poor kid has a cracked rib. He has to be seen again on Monday now, and I am somehow supposed to keep this very active young man from being active. Should be interesting.
This does not help with my feeling overwhelmed. Honestly, I think today was harder on me than it was him. I was imagining all the worst case scenarios. Now I am exhausted. I really hope that for the next 24 hours, life can be very uneventful and I can get some much needed rest.
(This was actually supposed to go to another blog. It works here as well though.)
I have to make a confession. I am a girl. This will be shocking to many people in my life, as I spent much of my time and effort ignoring that fact.
Why worry about doing your hair when you can just throw it in a ponytail?
Makeup? Nah. I’ll sleep an extra 30 minutes, thanks.
Wear a dress? Why? You have to remember to keep your knees together and not climb trees or ride bikes or any of that fun stuff.
See, I was born a girl, but I quickly learned that most of my neighbors were guys, and they had way more fun anyway. I decided early on in life that a t-shirt, jeans and sneakers are much more preferable to heels and dresses and makeup. EWW!
Except something happened.
As I was nearing my 30th birthday, I decided I actually liked jewelry. I found a job selling jewelry through a direct sales company, and eventually began creating and selling my own jewelry. I was shocked, because it was such a “girly” thing, but I liked it. It wasn’t long until I started realizing that other “girly” things could be fun and sexy once in a while. I haven’t completely turned away from my tomboy ways, but occasionally I do my makeup, fix my hair and strap on a hot set of heels.
I tend to pair my sexy heels with a nice pair of jeans that showcases my ASSets just right and a flattering top. While I am still not a complete girly-girl, I have definitely learned that with the right pair of shoes, a girl can do ANYTHING.
Don’t forget some fabulous earrings, a couple of bracelets and a great statement necklace to finish off the look, but it is definitely all about the shoes.
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